[NEVER AGAIN will I confess or focus on doubt and a lack of faith, because the Word says: "God has dealt to each one [every person] a measure of faith." (Romans 12:3) ]
Recently "lack of faith" or fear of the lack rather, has been my "excuse" for not being very focused on my church life. I havent been reading. I havent been studying. I have only been living. Existing. Taking up space and counting my blessings. I need to go to church. I know. I need to get these boys to church. I know. I've incorporated a "Talk about God and why we are thankful" day on sundays to try to make up for the lack of church with the boys. I know its not good enough. I know. Since I know these things, I must have some faith. I must have it embedded in my soul someplace, written on my harddrive that God and church are right. Not just good but RIGHT. So I can no longer use fear of doubt, or lack of faith as an excuse not to go or listen, or at least study.
Recently "lack of faith" or fear of the lack rather, has been my "excuse" for not being very focused on my church life. I havent been reading. I havent been studying. I have only been living. Existing. Taking up space and counting my blessings. I need to go to church. I know. I need to get these boys to church. I know. I've incorporated a "Talk about God and why we are thankful" day on sundays to try to make up for the lack of church with the boys. I know its not good enough. I know. Since I know these things, I must have some faith. I must have it embedded in my soul someplace, written on my harddrive that God and church are right. Not just good but RIGHT. So I can no longer use fear of doubt, or lack of faith as an excuse not to go or listen, or at least study.
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