Regaining Consciousness

Consciousness: an alert cognitive state in which you are aware of yourself and your situation

Suddenly I am more rudely awakened and made aware of my current situation. Its like my eyes have been opened to the simultaneous realities of not just myself but of the different people around me. Especially the ones no one seems to take account for. The ones that live the farthest outside the box. Most people just see them, on the edges of our peripheral mental vision, and discount them and their lavish lucky lives as just a fluke of nature or a rarity that they have no hope of becoming remotely equal to.

To put it plainly -the standpoint we "regular people" are taught to take is a skeptical and aggressively negative one: I cant do that. They are lucky. They are special. They are better than me in someway. Sure if I had... If I could ... if my ... or that... SURE I'd be rich/famous/come up with that idea/successful like so and so. Its amazing. And we buy it - hook, line and sinker. No questions asked.

See that rich person Jane?
Yes mommy.
They are lucky. Dont count on that happening to you. That doesnt happen to anyone! Best thing you can do is go to school and get a good job. Work really hard and maybe one day, you can at least live comfortably. Maybe even have a nice car and house like mommy and daddy.
Ok mommy.


Its our conditioning. But lately I've been spending some time amongst them, on the outskirts. Just observing. And seeing, let me tell you, IS believing... but experiencing "the life" just being close to it, and being told the exact opposite of what I've seen and experienced all my growing life as a "regular" person; 5 cars, sub urbanized, college grad, watching my rocket scientist father and superwoman board exec mother work themselves to death only to be slightly above middle class... it makes me wonder whether or not one HAS to be the sum of their experiences. Watching these new people, listening to their stories as former "regular people" its being proven over and over and then over again that its NOT unattainable. Its not so weird or illogical. Its not so far fetched anymore. These people don't have ANY thing I dont have. And they aren't better or luckier or closer to being a Jesus disciple or capable of anything that I cant do too!

So yeah...Lately I've been feeling like my blinders are slipping off...I've been feeling like the word "cant" is part of some conditioning, that maybe I "CANT" follow so blindly anymore...