Skinny Bitch Speaks (Losing the Weight Game, cont'd)

So like I said, I'm in the "Biggest Loser" contest at my job. Now, honestly, I'm so sick of the sideways looks and the teeth sucking when I say I want to lose weight. YES. I'm relatively small. Compared to some. YES. My target weight is my high school weight. Compleletly impossible for some. YES I'm only frickin 27. Ok 26. But seriously? All the side comments need to go. I'm so sick of hearing how I "dont need to lose any" "will disappear if I lose any" "should get out of the race because its unfair" All that -- ZIP it. I bore and birthed 2 children over 9lbs each. PLEASE mind your business. I'm so sick of people that dont know me, asking am I pregnant because I am small everywhere but my tummy, so I've decided to lose the baby weight and be HEALTHY. Why are you hating?? I am NOT as skinny as you think. I AGONIZE over my clothes, doing every trick in the book and making up some to make me look thin, but only because I endure TORTURE and embarrassment of people always ASKING "Are you preganant? When are you due? Aww How many months?" People are at least curteous to bigger women and wont say anything. Us "Skinny bitches" have feelings too, and its HARD to get back to being and staying "skinny". Especially when you're a mom. And you know what else? It's not fair being a small person and having to endure all kinds of ridicule when you gain an ounce or two extra every now and then!! Like you're under a microscope! And what about us Mommies who have all that extra flab that we have been told BY THE DOCTOR it has to be surgically removed? Like the extra skin you see on Extreme Makeover?? Yea. Raising my hand because I'm sure. I know how those people feel. You did the work and lost the weight, and almost look worse. And dont be on the IBT committee with flab!!At least big women have something up top to camoflauge that tummy! ARGGG!!
*SIGH* I cant wait to get my tummy tuck. Then, at least I will be at peace with myself and what I have to look at in the mirror everyday.

Ok, I'm off my Dove Box.

Former Skinny Bitch Treasurer, Lifetime Member of the ITBC