Rewrite. UGH.

So the book that I'm writing, was sent off 2 weeks ago for editing by my personal editor. (Just the first 8 chapters so far.) And I already want to change it. I realize now that I'm going to have to rewrite my entire story. I'm no longer in love with it and I can see the flaws more than the story. I need to rework the story so that it flows better and has events that are more emotional and interesting. I'm going to have to vamp up the energy and the pace to keep the reader reading. Its going to be a completely different species when I'm done, I can feel it. I'm going to work it out, though. This is my brain child and I cannot give up on it. It means too much to me to stop now. So.. here I go.

Speaking of new beginnings, tomorrow marks one year since my husband Jason died. I'm still a wreck, but I'm still standing. Still cant believe it, but I have faith. Still blown away, but I move forward. Still mentally mourning, but still here. <3